last time this year i'm playing this with the guys. man, this is sad. definitely sad. i'm in such a weird place right now...happy to be here and be playing and all, but also so sad to be leaving...and also a little sad 'cause...i don't even know if i can explain it. meh. more later, since we're actually gonna start the game now. i guess what the sadness is is that i'm just me, still, and even though i feel there's so much possibility next year to do what i want with my life, i'm still always me...change is really hard. sorry if that made no sense at all. more later, definitely.