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"What have I always believed? That on the whole, and by and large, if a man lived properly, not according to what any priests said, but according to what seemed decent and honest inside, then it would, at the end, more or less, turn out all right."


Jan. 30th, 2006 11:34 am
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just have to share this:

A family is a unit composed not only of children but of men, women, an occasional animal, and the common cold.
- Ogden Nash
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The point of living and of being an optimist is to be foolish enough to believe the best is yet to come.
- Peter Ustinov

yes. most definitely yes. because even though i had an absolutely amazing year, i have to believe that the best is still coming...otherwise, i think i'd go nuts.

in other news, phone interview in like 5 minutes, and i'm freaking out. yay.
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"You may never appear on CNN. And you might never be a worshipped sports hero or a fugitive mass murderer. But make no mistake. Your words count. People are listening. Their emotional well-being, their mood and temperament, and even their feelings of self-worth can sometimes hinge on what you say and how you say it."

just something i read on a aish.com, a jewish learning website. it seemed to fit my mood, plus it's just something that rings v. true with me.
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was just reading an article about jewish learning and how much books have always been valued in the jewish community, and this paragraph i read touched me so much, i have to share it with you guys.

Another woman who had spent several months in a Nazi labor camp in Austria recounted how on Yom Kippur, after someone had succeeded in passing a copy of a High Holiday prayer book into the camp, it was torn apart and each Jew was given one page of the services. The Jews were forced to treat the day as any other and they put in their grueling hours of hard labor, but at the same time each of them clung to their tattered page of the prayer book, combining to offer up a sorrow filled collective prayer to their creator.
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so i read this book that sam thought i should read, called the four loves by c.s. lewis and i really like a passage from it about affection.

feel free to ignore the following, this is more or less just for me )
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so i'm reading this book called The Book of Love by andrew greely and mary durkin. it's basically an anthology of various stories and poems and quotes about love in all different forms. there's a passage that i came across today that i wanted to share with everyone.

Our Hearts

To love "very much" is to love poorly: one loves -- that is all -- it cannot be modified or completed without being nullified. It is a short word, but it contains all: it means the body, the soul, the life, the entire being. We feel it as we feel the warmth of the blood, we breathe it as we breathe the air, we carry it in ourselves as we carry our thoughts. Nothing more exists for us. It is not a word; it is an inexpressible state indicated by four letters.
Guy De Maupassant

that's just so great. an inexpressible state is a wonderful way of putting it. it's true that love is hard to really express. i can tell someone i love them, but that's just a summary of sorts...it doesn't tell a person exactly what i mean. i find myself telling people i love them when i myself am down...in some weird way, expressing my love for others cheers me up. strange.

in other news, i'm going to arthur murray tonight! i haven't gone in ages, partly because i was at bci for 4 weeks, but also because i haven't really felt like going. i'm better than almost everyone there, including the teachers, and while i like dancing with beginners, i didn't really feel like paying money for it. today, though, i walked by when i was with rachel and decided to go in and say hi to people. it was nice to see photis and billy again, and rory was there! i didn't know she was coming back at all! so now i really want to go and dance with her and chat. i loved all the teachers, but she was probably my favorite. memories of high school came flooding back, along with lots of random thoughts. ask me if you want to know, since i'm not gonna post any of them in a public post. but yeah. now i absolutely have to go tonight. it's gonna be really cool. yay!
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"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."
--Gilda Radner

i like that quote a lot. yeah.

in other news, i have lots of dark-ish thoughts on my mind right now, for no good reason...musings about trust, control, hidden things...ask me and i may tell you.
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What Matters Most
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me whom you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
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i'm reading this book called How Good Do We Have To Be? by a rabbi named harold kushner, and i stumbled on this passage about memories that i really like. so read it, think about it, and take my memory poll here if you haven't already.

"Memory can be painful, as everything that makes a human being more than an animal can be painful. Good memories deepen the poignancy of what we have lost. Bad memories keep the resentment alive when the occasion is long past. But memory is what ultimately gives us power over death, by keeping the person alive in our hearts. Memory is what gives us power over time, by keeping the past present so that it cannot fade and rob us of what we once held precious. And as far as we know, only human beings have that. In a sense, our time on earth is limited, but in another sense it is not. We not only have today; we have all the yesterdays we are capable of remembering and all the tomorrows we can envision."
Harold S. Kushner
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i haven't been posting much this past week 'cause of midterms and visitors and all, so i thought i'd post a few things i've read that i've liked. first of, though, cin had a cool entry that i commented on...and the comment turned out almost entry sized, so i don't feel like reposting it. so, just go to this entry, read the entry and my comment, and respond! so yes...now on to my quotes.

so first off, i was skimming through this book called Please Understand Me II, by David Keirsey, him of the personality test. i haven't really read the book, but i was just skimming the section on relationships between the temperament types, and guess what? the lovely book has declared that "Champions and Masterminds should match up well." now who are these types they are talking about? why, it's ENFPs and INTJs, of course. now isn't that wonderful to know? who would've thought? sorry, i'm being just a tad bitter...i'll get over it soon. but on the bright side, according to mary ann, cin's an INTJ...so she and i should get along quite well...which, of course, we do.

and now, for some quotes from the same book i've been reading for a while now, The Healer of Shattered Hearts. i'm gonna put these behind an lj-cut tag because there are several of them, and they're rather long...but you should all read them! so go here to read more )
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so i went to practice on stage at noon, and strangely enough, i think i remember the routines. i need to do them a couple more times to get them down for sure, but it's coming together. i'm actually having a lot of fun leading...it's a challenge that i don't get often enough. i mean, the routines are pretty simple, so if i were doing the girl's part, i'd be bored. this way, i have to actually think about it and practice it and such. so yes, i'm quite happy with myself. this week is starting off well. i just hope tonight goes well.

i had a very nice weekend...especially sunday. it was a gorgeous day, so i walked to utc to get stuff for the showcase today. i was feeling very self-sufficient, which isn't a feeling i get all the time. i mean, i suck at being alone...i get so lonely and sad. but sunday, i was totally cool on my own. it gave me time to think...that isn't something i get to do very often, since i'm hardly ever alone anymore. it was kinda nice to be able to be by myself without getting into a mood. at the same time, it was nice to come back home and find cin there. i can handle being alone for a while, but not for too long...after a while, it starts getting to me. i hope i'll be ok this weekend...cin will be gone the whole time. but it's ok...i just got a ticket for the undergrad research conference on saturday. one of the sections is psychiatry and another is psychology...and josh wortman is presenting a paper in the psych one, which is extra incentive for going there. so yes, i think i'll manage. maybe i'll even enjoy being by myself. but don't count on it...so if anyone wants to hang out sunday, please tell me...i'll want company.

i will leave you all with another quote from the book i've been reading. the context for this one is explaining why there are certain set prayers in judaism. basically, the author is saying that we find it hard to express certain things without a set formula with which to say them.
"To say 'I love you' is a kind of liturgical formula: it allows a deep feeling to be expressed in a routine manner that is understood by those to whom we speak as well as allowing a release of our own feelings about the subject."
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts

what do you guys think? the last quote i put up inspired lots of comments, which was quite nice...i like comments.

Current Mood: peaceful
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ok, i've decided that i hate the middle of the quarter, especially since it's spring quarter. there's so much stuff going on right now, and all i can think about is getting out of here and going home for the summer. next week is gonna be hell. i have a hum paper due and a math midterm on wednesday, a lab due thursday, and a chem midterm friday. but that's just next week. for tomorrow, i have to finish a chem lab that's already late, write the lady in san francisco to get details about my internship, fill out and turn in applications for storage space for the ballroom dance club, get ready to talk to navs people about fundraising, figure out how to get to LAX on sunday, and prepare for the marshall semiformal which i am randomly going to with a friend of a friend. bother. between all this, i must somehow manage to get some sleep. i think i'll go sleep after i finish this entry, then tomorrow not go to chem and work on my lab, then not go to dancing until i'm done with my lab and it's turned in.

i now know what ceci meant by dance politics. everyone is stressed out and one of our officers is being rather rude to me. i will refrain from naming her, since i'm trying my best not to be rude. however, if she writes me another nasty e-mail, i'm afraid i will not be very pleasant in return. i've been good so far, but i'm not a very patient person, and there's only so much i can do to keep myself from snapping back. hopefully everything will calm down soon.

i realized that i didn't put the context for the quote i had in my last entry. it's talking about the power of silence, and how that was the way rabbis of the talmud felt about God, with that awe and deep love. i just really liked the way it was written, especially since i can relate to it. i think that's why i love hugs so much. they take the place of words...i don't have to say anything, but i can still show love. yeah.

so here's another quote from the same book. this time, the context is that while it is an important thing that God loves humans, it is more important that we are aware of this love.

"To love alone, in secret, is not enough. The benefit of the beloved comes equally from the recognition of love, the feeling of warmth and uniquness that it bestows. That is a great tragedy of some love, that it exists but is not communicated to the beloved, to the child, to the parent, the husband or wife. Even though love abounds, the psychological supposrt is lost...To be loved is insufficient. The wall of restraint must crumble. Love must be expressed, felt, shared"
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts

so yes...what's the point of this, you ask? it's quite clear. if you love someone, tell them. or at least show them...but let them know in some way or another. yes.
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i've been meaning to post this for over a week, but kept on forgeting...so here it is.

"When struck by a moment of awesome beauty -- the first glance at a masterpiece of man or nature -- we are silent. Later, words rush to fill the void, to explain the experience; but at first we cannot speak. Silence is the mother tongue of awe.
The same experience occurs with a pang of deep love. There are moments when looking at someone will flood a heart, and words seem not only inadequate, but a cheapening of the marvel of emotion. Later, when the rush of love subsides, we may be able to mouth the words 'I love you.' Yet the initial power of experience is captured only in silence."
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts


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