Drunk guys use really dumb lines...
Mar. 3rd, 2002 02:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelthe above is evidenced by the guy that came up to me and informed me that i "have nice hair, very curly." he then attempted to dance with me, but was a bit off balance, so i was able to escape. but i should start from the beginning of the day, not the end
i had to be at dance by the shores at 8, which involved getting myself up at 7:30 to have time to get all my stuff together. i also had to wake up my visitor...this girl and her partner needed a place to stay for the night, so i let her sleep in my bed, put him in the lounge on the couch, and slept in cin's bed...i hope you don't mind, cin...i didn't want to put a stranger in your bed, especially considering the fact that they were thinking of sharing. but anyhow, i went to help set up and stuff, and found out that i was dancing in the first two heats...that was rather scary...i was nervous, i couldn't sit still. we did surprisingly well in our events, though. we were disappointed with hustle since we got last place, but it was ok since we had fun anyways. we got third in bronze american rumba and newcomer waltz and fourth in bronze waltz...both bronze results were unexpected. we didn't even think we'd be called back to the final rounds of those events...but we did really well...so that was happy. and the coolest part was at the party, when jonathan told me he thought i did a really good job of feeling the music in waltz and keeping on the beat and stuff. he understands dancing, so it was nice hearing that from him, since he wouldn't say it to just be nice. he gives more criticism that praise usually...not in a bad way, but just in a teaching sort of a way. so it's nice to get praise...means it was actually good.
there were lots of good performances and such...and then the competition was over and we cleaned up and everyone was gonna go to dana's party. i didn't know if i wanted to go, but i talked to blain, and he said he could get a ride and could take me with him...so i decided to go. i'm not sure if it was a good decision or not. i mean, the party itself was a bit pointless for me since i don't drink. the place was packed, everyone was drinking and some were very very drunk, and people were getting weird...licking whipped cream off of each other and such. i mostly stayed in a corner in the kitchen and talked to jon, who was too tired to drink, and kevin, who had drunk some, but wasn't really drunk. it was cool to talk to them and stuff, but then kevin left and jon was talking to someone, so i decided to migrate into the room with the music and see if there was any space to dance. that was when i encountered the really drunk guy with the stupid line, so i moved away from him and deeper into the crowd of dancing people. i ran into blain there, and thought "oh, i could dance with him!" but of course, that was not the case because a drunk girl approached him and they proceeded to dance and kiss in the middle of the floor. thankfully, his group decided to go soon and i was finally taken home.
so now for the present...i'm feeling very lonely. it's all because of the party, i guess. what made me feel that way was the stupid drunk guy and also the fact that all the guys from the team were dancing with random team girls and i didn't have anyone i knew to dance with, or at least anyone who wasn't dead drunk and obviously looking for some action. him trying the line on me made me feel more lonely, not less. it was silly. i knew i shouldn't have gone to dance...i wa fine just talking to people. but i wanted to dance...of course, i wouldn't have anyone. i'm not on a formation team, so i don't really know most of the guys...and there are always more girls, so it makes sense that i would be by myself. but it's still sad. and it's not like i'm looking for something big...just a guy to dance with for a bit. but yes, that was sad. i was glad to be taken home. but on a happier note, blain wants to dance latin with me and i talked to kevin about needing a partner for standard, and he said he'd dance with me...so now i'll have at least kevin to practice with, since i don't know how reliable blain is...but it'll be fun dancing with kevin...so that's a nice thing.
revelation of the day: no crush on "graham crackers!" i was thinking about it today, trying to figure out if i feel anything for him beyond just friends, and i realized i really don't. i mean, i don't even know how close we can get as friends since i'm not sure anymore if i can talk to him about my thoughts besides dancing and superficial things. and i certainly wouldn't want a relationship with someone who i can't have thoughtful conversations with. so i've realized that even if he suddenly realized he was interested, i'm not anymore. we can still hang out and such, but i don't want anything past that. i'm relieved, in a way...i don't need drama right now...i have quite enough as it is.
sorry for the really long entry...i just needed to get stuff out of my system. it's off to sleep for me now.
i had to be at dance by the shores at 8, which involved getting myself up at 7:30 to have time to get all my stuff together. i also had to wake up my visitor...this girl and her partner needed a place to stay for the night, so i let her sleep in my bed, put him in the lounge on the couch, and slept in cin's bed...i hope you don't mind, cin...i didn't want to put a stranger in your bed, especially considering the fact that they were thinking of sharing. but anyhow, i went to help set up and stuff, and found out that i was dancing in the first two heats...that was rather scary...i was nervous, i couldn't sit still. we did surprisingly well in our events, though. we were disappointed with hustle since we got last place, but it was ok since we had fun anyways. we got third in bronze american rumba and newcomer waltz and fourth in bronze waltz...both bronze results were unexpected. we didn't even think we'd be called back to the final rounds of those events...but we did really well...so that was happy. and the coolest part was at the party, when jonathan told me he thought i did a really good job of feeling the music in waltz and keeping on the beat and stuff. he understands dancing, so it was nice hearing that from him, since he wouldn't say it to just be nice. he gives more criticism that praise usually...not in a bad way, but just in a teaching sort of a way. so it's nice to get praise...means it was actually good.
there were lots of good performances and such...and then the competition was over and we cleaned up and everyone was gonna go to dana's party. i didn't know if i wanted to go, but i talked to blain, and he said he could get a ride and could take me with him...so i decided to go. i'm not sure if it was a good decision or not. i mean, the party itself was a bit pointless for me since i don't drink. the place was packed, everyone was drinking and some were very very drunk, and people were getting weird...licking whipped cream off of each other and such. i mostly stayed in a corner in the kitchen and talked to jon, who was too tired to drink, and kevin, who had drunk some, but wasn't really drunk. it was cool to talk to them and stuff, but then kevin left and jon was talking to someone, so i decided to migrate into the room with the music and see if there was any space to dance. that was when i encountered the really drunk guy with the stupid line, so i moved away from him and deeper into the crowd of dancing people. i ran into blain there, and thought "oh, i could dance with him!" but of course, that was not the case because a drunk girl approached him and they proceeded to dance and kiss in the middle of the floor. thankfully, his group decided to go soon and i was finally taken home.
so now for the present...i'm feeling very lonely. it's all because of the party, i guess. what made me feel that way was the stupid drunk guy and also the fact that all the guys from the team were dancing with random team girls and i didn't have anyone i knew to dance with, or at least anyone who wasn't dead drunk and obviously looking for some action. him trying the line on me made me feel more lonely, not less. it was silly. i knew i shouldn't have gone to dance...i wa fine just talking to people. but i wanted to dance...of course, i wouldn't have anyone. i'm not on a formation team, so i don't really know most of the guys...and there are always more girls, so it makes sense that i would be by myself. but it's still sad. and it's not like i'm looking for something big...just a guy to dance with for a bit. but yes, that was sad. i was glad to be taken home. but on a happier note, blain wants to dance latin with me and i talked to kevin about needing a partner for standard, and he said he'd dance with me...so now i'll have at least kevin to practice with, since i don't know how reliable blain is...but it'll be fun dancing with kevin...so that's a nice thing.
revelation of the day: no crush on "graham crackers!" i was thinking about it today, trying to figure out if i feel anything for him beyond just friends, and i realized i really don't. i mean, i don't even know how close we can get as friends since i'm not sure anymore if i can talk to him about my thoughts besides dancing and superficial things. and i certainly wouldn't want a relationship with someone who i can't have thoughtful conversations with. so i've realized that even if he suddenly realized he was interested, i'm not anymore. we can still hang out and such, but i don't want anything past that. i'm relieved, in a way...i don't need drama right now...i have quite enough as it is.
sorry for the really long entry...i just needed to get stuff out of my system. it's off to sleep for me now.
