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dancingyel11 down, 5 to go, and all done with finals! can't wait to see bay area people again and just rest for a while. i still have the 5 apps to finish, but it won't be so bad, and it feels so good to be almost done with it!
on a different note, in my sleepy state (i still haven't gone to sleep since i'm waiting for the drive) i decided it would be a good idea to look over my old journals and took out the one from the end of senior year of high school and the summer after it and attempted to read it...and realized that i still can't. i skimmed a little and then had to put it away...and i wasn't even on the verge of tears or anything, i was just at this weird overwhelmed place and i didn't want to push it any further. i've been over-emotional as it is with all the stress, and i don't need the additional stuff. yeah. i wonder if i'll ever be able to read it again without reacting like this.
on yet another note, i ran into boaz (guy i knew since sunday school in 5th or 6th grade) and we hung out kinda randomly and i think i talked to him more last night that in the whole time i've known him. it was interesting. he was really nice...walked me home from clicks, even, 'cause it was nearly 5am and i wasn't so keen on walking alone. so yeah. weird encounter, but that's ok.
i'm starting to really crash and i'm trying to keep myself awake 'till emily comes so i can crash in the car. i wish i could've taken a nap or something. oh, man.
ok, off to look for a way to amuse myself without falling asleep. i wish i could get a massage. except that would make me fall asleep for sure. but yeah.
happy winter break to all the people on break! yay!
on a different note, in my sleepy state (i still haven't gone to sleep since i'm waiting for the drive) i decided it would be a good idea to look over my old journals and took out the one from the end of senior year of high school and the summer after it and attempted to read it...and realized that i still can't. i skimmed a little and then had to put it away...and i wasn't even on the verge of tears or anything, i was just at this weird overwhelmed place and i didn't want to push it any further. i've been over-emotional as it is with all the stress, and i don't need the additional stuff. yeah. i wonder if i'll ever be able to read it again without reacting like this.
on yet another note, i ran into boaz (guy i knew since sunday school in 5th or 6th grade) and we hung out kinda randomly and i think i talked to him more last night that in the whole time i've known him. it was interesting. he was really nice...walked me home from clicks, even, 'cause it was nearly 5am and i wasn't so keen on walking alone. so yeah. weird encounter, but that's ok.
i'm starting to really crash and i'm trying to keep myself awake 'till emily comes so i can crash in the car. i wish i could've taken a nap or something. oh, man.
ok, off to look for a way to amuse myself without falling asleep. i wish i could get a massage. except that would make me fall asleep for sure. but yeah.
happy winter break to all the people on break! yay!
