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my original plan for today was get to sleep ultra early, get up in time to read names for the holocaust memorial at 6:30,and hopefully make it through the day without too many problems stemming from lack of sleep. the plans seem to have changed. wade, a guy i'm working with for the hillel retreat, called and asked if i wanted to meet with him, orrin, and dave (the other guys working with us) at 11:15 at night to discuss plans. i said ok and thought to myself that i would come, discuss for a bit, then go home and sleep, then get up for 6:30 and read and hopefully survive the day. it seems that the plans have changed yet again. i am in the library lounge right now, outside of which the reading is going on, and i plan on staying all night. i couldn't leave...it's just too powerful and emotional and depressing...so i suppose i'll try to catch sleep here and there, and will go to math tomorrow, but skip hum and chem and catch up on a bit of sleep. the interesting thing, though, is that through all this depressed mood, i've met and talked to a couple of really cool people. i guess it's a bonding experience. and i re-met this guy i met in the beginning of the year, josh. he's taking upper div stats right now and has kindly offered his help to me...so sam, i won't have to bug you with math problems this quarter. maybe next time. yeah...on a side note, josh gives very good hugs...i was all depressed after reading the first time, and desperately in need of a hug, and he came over and just held me...it was v. comforting...thanks josh, on the off chance that you are reading this. by the way, if you're reading this and do not have an lj, please comment...i love getting comments, and i really wanna know who's reading my stuff. thanks!

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goodnight all!

it's nearly five in the morning, and i decided that i simply can't handle it anymore. i need a couple of hours of sleep or i'm just gonna crash completely. so, i said good night to the lovely people from hillel, and i am now off to bed for about 2.5 hours or so. goodnight everyone!

today will be a long day

it's just after one, and i'm back at library lounge, wondering if i dare read over a price center full of hundreds of people. i didn't cry last night, and i doubt i'd cry now since i'm just too tired to...but still, it's intimidating, reading with all those people out there. it's not like all of them are listening, but a good portion are, and it's just frightening. i dunno. when i finish this, i will go outside and decide then if i wanna do this or not.

so i had a nice quick talk with my mom, and we were discussing why she wants me to marry a "nice jewish boy." if you wanna know why i was talking to her about it in the first place, you gotta wait until i have time later in the day to write a friends only entry. but yeah. so it turns out, she doesn't just want the religion aspect of it. oh, no...she wants the whole culture tradition thing. this means she'd like me to marry a guy who's jewish by birth, not through conversion, and he should be ashkenazi, not sephardic, since the sephardic jewish culture is radically different. i was a bit amused by this...she has very specific prefernces for my future mate. doesn't mean, of course, that i'll follow them...but it's amusing to see how my mom's mind works. ok, well, i'm off to maybe read. more updates later.

today is my day for compulsively updating my lj

i don't have much time to write right now, since i have v-ball in about 20 minutes, but i just had to write a brief entry. this is not the friends only entry i promised earlier...that one will have to wait until i have more time than that. but yeah.

so i'm gonna be like cin (thanks for the inspiration, roomie) and pose a question for all of you who read this. do you think it's possible to have a crush on more than one person at a time? i don't mean serious feelings...i mean the infatuation stage, the beginning that can develop into something more if it has a chance. i'd love to know what you all think about this.

on a side note, i did end up reading another shift at around 1:30pm. it was a little scary since there were loads of people in price center, but it was a good experience for me. i came away a bit depressed, but too tired for it to really hit. so i decided to go to rimac for my abs class...where i ran into vic chu and changed my mind about going to the class. i sat and talked to him instead...we had a v. nice convo about lots of random things, eventually coming to God and being respectful of other religions and stuff. he had some cool things to say...it was great talking to him. he's such a nice guy...

oh, sam...i got your letter! thanks so much! i'm gonna go to see's the first chance i get...and you're right...i can't resist the opportunity to get free chocolate...i just don't have enough will power for that. i can't wait to see the other part...i'm very curious, but the chocolate will keep me happy until summer. i'll call you tonight!

well, it's off to v-ball i go...more updates still to come.

wrapping it up

well, since i've been writing here compulsively, i decided to write one more entry, just so i have a record of 6 entries for the day. the next closest is 4, but i think all of those were quizzes. so that doesn't really count.

so i went to massage at 7, and it was really cool. the class was huge...20 people at first, and then 1 more came in the middle. it was kinda cool because barbara (the teacher) worked on john (the late guy) and let me walk around correcting people and stuff. and then, when we switched, john worked on me, so i got a massage. it was very nice...we had funny conversations the whole time. he has really good hands, so i got pretty relaxed. i'm looking forward to the coming weeks...massage is lots of fun.

well, i still have a lab write-up to do, so i will leave now, and hopefully get some sleep tonight. bye!

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