wonderfully nice day

so yesterday was great. simply great, despite the fact that i had to wake up at 7am and spend my free time studying for my o-chem final that i'm afraid i'm going to fail. oh, before i go on. maxim, if you're reading this, i promise i'll write you back as soon as my final is done and over with. this week was crazy, and i just didn't have time to sit down and write a letter. i shouldn't even be writing this right now, but, oh, well.

so anyhow. yesterday was the dance comp at claremont, and it was fantastic. the waltz didn't go so well, but i expected that and wasn't really disappointed. carlos got nervous and messed up stuff he knew, and i wasn't calm enough to stay as up and together as i could have. but it's ok. i didn't think anything would come of that, so i'm ok that it didn't. what was really cool, though, was the rhumba and cha-cha. i was gonna dance cha with sean, but there was no rhumba in my level, so i wasn't gonna dance at all. when we got there, we found out that they opened a rhumba level, but it wasn't just level 1 (which is where i am) but all levels...so sean and i entered, just for the heck of it, so we could be on the floor a little longer. we didn't really have a routine as such, except for the newcomer level routine that peter taught the group. so, we entered this comp with 25 couples, most of whom were higher level than us, with a really simple, unpracticed routine. it wasn't that the routine was hard...it was that we hadn't really danced rhumba together much. we decided we were gonna go out there and just have a good time...and we made the semi's! it was so cool! we were very surprised to do so well against such a good group.. and then, we got 5th place in our level 1 cha-cha, with a fairly simple routine once again. so, because we did so well with little practice and no tricks in our routines, we decided that we really need to work on these over the next two months, put in some tricks, and compete at dance by the shores in march. also, he was talking about wanting to dance standard, and we were half talking about taking lessons with that. i'm kinda afraid to hope, in case something happens over winter break to change this, but it looks like i'm gonna have a partner for something at least...i'm not sure exactly what. so yes. that's happy. and it was just so nice to be at a competition. al the things that go along with it are cool...the rush in the bathroom to put on dresses and make-up, pinning numbers on guys, holding hands waiting to see if we're called back...and good funny conversations in the car. yes. happy.

in other, not so happy, news: for those of you who don't already know, i broke up with my boyfriend this past thursday. more than one reason for that, but the main one, and the simplest to explain, is that the relationship wasn't what i needed. he's a great guy, but it just wasn't right. yeah. not a happy thing to do, but it had to be done.

ok, off to sleep since i have an 8 am final.

interesting...

just took my o-chem final...we'll see what happens with that. i don't wanna think about it any more now. it's over. yay.

found this quote i really like. it describes my feelings on relationships pretty well.
"What I need is someone who will make me do what I can."
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

ok, back to sleep i go...perhaps today i'll actually catch up on some missing rest.

"i just wanna dance with you"

so lately, i've been thinking lots about dancing. i love it so much, and i really want to get better and compete. going to competitions and not dancing leaves a dull ache in me...it's been like this for a while, ever since middle school, but it's only now that i have a real chance of doing something about this. so i'm gonna do what i can...which at this point is nothing, since it's finals week and winter break is just about here...but when we get back in january, i'm going to seriously look for a partner. yes. that's a resolution.

sorry for the short, mostly one line entries from the past week. i didn't feel like writing any more before yesterday. i know i was being a bit cryptic, but yeah. fitting, isn't it? started out with cryptic entries, ended with cryptic entries. right. i shall go now before i get any crazier.

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the song i'm listening to, here today, is making me rather sad...it's for george harrison, and it's a really sweet, sad song. listening to it also brings back memories of that concert...looking back, i'm so glad i went instead of selling my tickets! that was an awesome concert, and more than worth than money. so yes. sad song, but happy memories.