back after a long time

so i'm back. i know, i know, i haven't updated in ages. didn't feel like it for a while, and then i left for 26 days to go to bci, a jewish summer program for people 18-26. it was absolutely amazing...the best thing i could've done this summer. i'll write in a bit more detail about that eventually...before sunday, i promise. i came back to san francisco last week and now i'm working full time until i go back to school. i'm being a secretary this week and helping revamp the filing system starting monday. it's the same company i worked for when i was in high school, so i know the guys and everything. it's office work, which i'm quickly realizing i really dislike, but it's a job, which is good. otherwise, i'd be sitting at home doing nothing all day, and this is better. it gives me something to do, and i'm earning money, which i definitely need, what with paying for bci and dancing stuff coming up and so on.

so what else can i write in my quick news summary? i think i'll make a list of things i want to address in more detail over the next couple of posts.

1. bci. i'm not sure how detailed i'm gonna get about it, since it's a little difficult to explain and hasn't really processed yet, but i'll try.
2. i'm going to deactivate from my sorority. more details to come. am dreading the convo i need to have with jessica.
3. job gripes. i need an audience to gripe to, and i think my mom's tired of hearing it.
4. general summer happiness. it's been good. really good.

on a final note, if you're reading this and thinking that i owe you an e-mail, comment and i'll get back to you. i haven't been great about my e-mail, i know, but i'm trying to catch up now.

ok, back to work and filing and other such wonderful things. hope everyone's having a wonderful summer!

a quote and some short-ish musings

so i'm reading this book called The Book of Love by andrew greely and mary durkin. it's basically an anthology of various stories and poems and quotes about love in all different forms. there's a passage that i came across today that i wanted to share with everyone.

Our Hearts
To love "very much" is to love poorly: one loves -- that is all -- it cannot be modified or completed without being nullified. It is a short word, but it contains all: it means the body, the soul, the life, the entire being. We feel it as we feel the warmth of the blood, we breathe it as we breathe the air, we carry it in ourselves as we carry our thoughts. Nothing more exists for us. It is not a word; it is an inexpressible state indicated by four letters.
Guy De Maupassant

that's just so great. an inexpressible state is a wonderful way of putting it. it's true that love is hard to really express. i can tell someone i love them, but that's just a summary of sorts...it doesn't tell a person exactly what i mean. i find myself telling people i love them when i myself am down...in some weird way, expressing my love for others cheers me up. strange.

in other news, i'm going to arthur murray tonight! i haven't gone in ages, partly because i was at bci for 4 weeks, but also because i haven't really felt like going. i'm better than almost everyone there, including the teachers, and while i like dancing with beginners, i didn't really feel like paying money for it. today, though, i walked by when i was with rachel and decided to go in and say hi to people. it was nice to see photis and billy again, and rory was there! i didn't know she was coming back at all! so now i really want to go and dance with her and chat. i loved all the teachers, but she was probably my favorite. memories of high school came flooding back, along with lots of random thoughts. ask me if you want to know, since i'm not gonna post any of them in a public post. but yeah. now i absolutely have to go tonight. it's gonna be really cool. yay!

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wow...wow....wow...must see this.