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blah. talked to him today, which was good in that at least now i know what's happening, but bad in that it was just not so happy. the moral of the story seems to be that i shouldn't be so nice. lovely. at least i don't have to see him today, and hopefully, i will have cooled down by tomorrow. actually, i don't really have to see him tomorrow, either, at least not during practice, so that's small comfort.

oh, well, at least that's settled. moving on. yeah.

i really need to deal with my mood icons. not today, since i have stats midterm tomorrow, but maybe tomorrow or over the weekend. we'll see.

one more thought: if nothing else, i have the best support system. love my friends. thanks for the lovely tulips, cindy!

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man oh man. i thought being angry protected me from being upset, but on the walk home from practice tonight, anger turned to misery and i was in tears by the time i came home. thank heavens for abby's friend, whose name i believe is wilson (i should really find out for sure from abby), who hugged me and let me cry it out. it's quite amazing, the support i've gotten from everyone around.

and yeah, i know this is all public, but at this point, i don't really care. i feel how i feel, and if he reads it, that's fine. no names, but i'm sure if he reads this, he'll know i'm talking about him.

the things i'm most concerned about: earl's trips (i'm afraid if the girl goes too, i'll be miserably watching them the whole time) and tuesday practice, because that's our practice time for day by the shores stuff, and if them dating is gonna interfere with that, i'm gonna be very very upset.

what prompted the misery was seeing him unexpectedly tonight because he came to pick her up from salsa practice and walk her home. i didn't think i'd have to deal with seeing him until tomorrow. and he acted as if nothing had changed! blah! however, this is the only time i'm glad to be short, since she's taller than me, and that means i'll never have to dance with her (i'm dancing as a man on the demo teams, and we just got partners today, so there's no rotation other than with your partner.)

ok, off to finish studying for stupid stats. wish me luck!