i really don't like valentine's day
Feb. 13th, 2002 10:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelwell, i suppose it wouldn't be so bad if i didn't think so much about, but i suppose i have masochistic tendencies or something, 'cause i just keep thinking about the awfulness of it all. i suppose it's not that awful...i'm just feeling sad right now. i was realizing a couple of days ago that one of the reasons i miss home so much is that here, i can't just come up to someone, like my mom, and snuggle up and feel safe. i miss that...strange, huh? all that time i was so eager to get away from home, and now i miss it. i guess i don't actually want to live at home...my mom and i would fight too much if i did. i just want to have someone around to make me feel protected.
so yesterday, kelly and i were practicing on the stage (!!!) of mandevile auditorium, since there was no other place to practice, and it was really cool. i must be really obsessed with dancing...i like all those little tedious things about it, like working on a step over and over again before you finally get it just the way you want it, and then working on it again so you're sure you actually got it. i think it's all a part of it, and i actually wish i could do that more. i mean, that's what partners do when they practice...i really want a partner to regularly work with. i've never had one before...it would be lots of fun.
oh, btw, cin found out that ralph is gonna graduate in 5 years...which means he'll be here for two more years after this one! yay! there's more time for us to actually get to dance with him! yes, i know it's silly, but it makes me quite happy. it would be so much fun to dance with him!
so yesterday, kelly and i were practicing on the stage (!!!) of mandevile auditorium, since there was no other place to practice, and it was really cool. i must be really obsessed with dancing...i like all those little tedious things about it, like working on a step over and over again before you finally get it just the way you want it, and then working on it again so you're sure you actually got it. i think it's all a part of it, and i actually wish i could do that more. i mean, that's what partners do when they practice...i really want a partner to regularly work with. i've never had one before...it would be lots of fun.
oh, btw, cin found out that ralph is gonna graduate in 5 years...which means he'll be here for two more years after this one! yay! there's more time for us to actually get to dance with him! yes, i know it's silly, but it makes me quite happy. it would be so much fun to dance with him!
