belated year-in-review
Jan. 4th, 2004 08:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelfinally getting around to posting this...month by month reivew of highlights of my 2003
january: the biggest highlight of this month was deciding not to be a pre-med. this was one of the biggest decisions, certainly the strangest. i'd been a premed since i was like 5, so it was odd to have to think about totally different career plans.
february: not the most exciting or easiest month, as far as i can remember. i think it was in february that i decided to apply to bci, and that was one the best decisions i've ever made, comparable to choosing to come here for college. the downside to the month: lots of insecurities came flooding back due to various stimluli.
march: helped with day by the shores, which was mucho fun. turned 20! oh, started working as a conversation leader! that was a good thing, definitely...fun job, getting paid for talking to foreign students. too bad i don't have time to do it this quarter.
april: competitions and travelling galore. went to stanford, vegas, and sfo. actually competed with the team at stanford and sfo, which was awesome. my sister and rachel came to see me at one, my parents came to the other one. at sfo, i even got to talk to gary mcdonald! and vegas was the most fun, what with the team bus and all. oh, also decided to be on command staff, which turned to be a great thing.
may: fairly eventful month, i think. had my bat mitzvah, great time and was very proud of myself for doing it. it was a big step, a real commitment, and i'm so glad it happened. also, this was the month of the toga-totter, and the time that i really started questioning the sorority. lots of things pushing me, so i held off on making a decision at that point.
june: really, i don't remember anything eventful happening this month. school ended for the year. that's about it. oh, and i babysat a lot.
july: went to bci! the coolest, most wonderful thing to happen to me all year. it's funny...it's hard to explain exactly what about it made such a difference to me, but i came back feeling like a whole different person. i've never felt like i fit in so well with a group of jews before, for one thing, and i didn't clam up at all, not even on the first day. for the first time with a new group, i wasn't the quiet girl in the corner. i never felt left out of stuff, didn't have to keep to a personality that was expected of me. i learned so many different things, met awesome people, did drama, which was new and challenging, sang and danced almost every day, and came back from it all suddenly self-confident and outgoing. i don't know what made the change, but it's been a blessing.
august: came back from bci, got to live with nik for a week, which was very very cool and wonderful, then spent the rest of the month working as a secretary type person for greg, the guy i worked for in high school. i hate office owrk, i realized, but he's a really good boss, so it wasn't so horrid.
september: hmmm...what happened this month? continued working...oh! finally made the decision to leave the sorority. that took some time to come to, but i'm glad i did -- i have more time now for things that provide more for me. also this month, was really sick. then moved back to san diego.
october: school started in earnest. being on command staff and helping run try-outs was great because it forced me to be out there, really meet people and be outgoing and hyper, to the point that chris doesn't believe me when i say that i get shy. met so many great new people, got to hang out with old friends. just had a blast. also, lots of practice with nationals, lots and lots of fun. oh, at the end were the fires, which were horrible and scary and just bad. oh, one more! started working with the pigeons! heh...eventful month.
november: more of the same as october, danced and danced all the time. hung out lots with team people, did the scavenger hunt, generally enjoyed myself. wonderful month. also went home for thanksgiving for the first time...cin and i stayed here the other two years.
december: finals went really well, then went home for break! rotk midnight show was a blast, had an amazing time hanging out in costume, and the movie itself rocked! had a lovely new year's party/thing. hung out with a lot of friends. good rest.
so now i'm here, it's january, and i'm ready to start the year. 2003 was a really good year for me. made progress with judaism, became much more confident, danced a lot. this quarter particularly was the best quarter i've ever had, most fun and happiest. even the times i wasn't really happy, i wasn't down, either. so it's been great and i hope it continues.
i met really great people this year and also got closer to some of my old friends. figured out that it's ok for me to change, my close friends can deal with it, and people who can't aren't that important anyhow. figured out that i don't have to have approval all the time, even though it's nice. figured out that i don't have to live up to anyone else's standards, just my own and God's. figured out that it's ok to keep things to myself, i don't have to tell anyone everything, not even the people closest to me. sometimes privacy is really good. yeah. learned a lot.
resolutions for the year: keep the room neater. keep a writtten list of everything i eat. keep up with my research methods class.
january: the biggest highlight of this month was deciding not to be a pre-med. this was one of the biggest decisions, certainly the strangest. i'd been a premed since i was like 5, so it was odd to have to think about totally different career plans.
february: not the most exciting or easiest month, as far as i can remember. i think it was in february that i decided to apply to bci, and that was one the best decisions i've ever made, comparable to choosing to come here for college. the downside to the month: lots of insecurities came flooding back due to various stimluli.
march: helped with day by the shores, which was mucho fun. turned 20! oh, started working as a conversation leader! that was a good thing, definitely...fun job, getting paid for talking to foreign students. too bad i don't have time to do it this quarter.
april: competitions and travelling galore. went to stanford, vegas, and sfo. actually competed with the team at stanford and sfo, which was awesome. my sister and rachel came to see me at one, my parents came to the other one. at sfo, i even got to talk to gary mcdonald! and vegas was the most fun, what with the team bus and all. oh, also decided to be on command staff, which turned to be a great thing.
may: fairly eventful month, i think. had my bat mitzvah, great time and was very proud of myself for doing it. it was a big step, a real commitment, and i'm so glad it happened. also, this was the month of the toga-totter, and the time that i really started questioning the sorority. lots of things pushing me, so i held off on making a decision at that point.
june: really, i don't remember anything eventful happening this month. school ended for the year. that's about it. oh, and i babysat a lot.
july: went to bci! the coolest, most wonderful thing to happen to me all year. it's funny...it's hard to explain exactly what about it made such a difference to me, but i came back feeling like a whole different person. i've never felt like i fit in so well with a group of jews before, for one thing, and i didn't clam up at all, not even on the first day. for the first time with a new group, i wasn't the quiet girl in the corner. i never felt left out of stuff, didn't have to keep to a personality that was expected of me. i learned so many different things, met awesome people, did drama, which was new and challenging, sang and danced almost every day, and came back from it all suddenly self-confident and outgoing. i don't know what made the change, but it's been a blessing.
august: came back from bci, got to live with nik for a week, which was very very cool and wonderful, then spent the rest of the month working as a secretary type person for greg, the guy i worked for in high school. i hate office owrk, i realized, but he's a really good boss, so it wasn't so horrid.
september: hmmm...what happened this month? continued working...oh! finally made the decision to leave the sorority. that took some time to come to, but i'm glad i did -- i have more time now for things that provide more for me. also this month, was really sick. then moved back to san diego.
october: school started in earnest. being on command staff and helping run try-outs was great because it forced me to be out there, really meet people and be outgoing and hyper, to the point that chris doesn't believe me when i say that i get shy. met so many great new people, got to hang out with old friends. just had a blast. also, lots of practice with nationals, lots and lots of fun. oh, at the end were the fires, which were horrible and scary and just bad. oh, one more! started working with the pigeons! heh...eventful month.
november: more of the same as october, danced and danced all the time. hung out lots with team people, did the scavenger hunt, generally enjoyed myself. wonderful month. also went home for thanksgiving for the first time...cin and i stayed here the other two years.
december: finals went really well, then went home for break! rotk midnight show was a blast, had an amazing time hanging out in costume, and the movie itself rocked! had a lovely new year's party/thing. hung out with a lot of friends. good rest.
so now i'm here, it's january, and i'm ready to start the year. 2003 was a really good year for me. made progress with judaism, became much more confident, danced a lot. this quarter particularly was the best quarter i've ever had, most fun and happiest. even the times i wasn't really happy, i wasn't down, either. so it's been great and i hope it continues.
i met really great people this year and also got closer to some of my old friends. figured out that it's ok for me to change, my close friends can deal with it, and people who can't aren't that important anyhow. figured out that i don't have to have approval all the time, even though it's nice. figured out that i don't have to live up to anyone else's standards, just my own and God's. figured out that it's ok to keep things to myself, i don't have to tell anyone everything, not even the people closest to me. sometimes privacy is really good. yeah. learned a lot.
resolutions for the year: keep the room neater. keep a writtten list of everything i eat. keep up with my research methods class.
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