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[dancingyel]

man oh man. i thought being angry protected me from being upset, but on the walk home from practice tonight, anger turned to misery and i was in tears by the time i came home. thank heavens for abby's friend, whose name i believe is wilson (i should really find out for sure from abby), who hugged me and let me cry it out. it's quite amazing, the support i've gotten from everyone around.

and yeah, i know this is all public, but at this point, i don't really care. i feel how i feel, and if he reads it, that's fine. no names, but i'm sure if he reads this, he'll know i'm talking about him.

the things i'm most concerned about: earl's trips (i'm afraid if the girl goes too, i'll be miserably watching them the whole time) and tuesday practice, because that's our practice time for day by the shores stuff, and if them dating is gonna interfere with that, i'm gonna be very very upset.

what prompted the misery was seeing him unexpectedly tonight because he came to pick her up from salsa practice and walk her home. i didn't think i'd have to deal with seeing him until tomorrow. and he acted as if nothing had changed! blah! however, this is the only time i'm glad to be short, since she's taller than me, and that means i'll never have to dance with her (i'm dancing as a man on the demo teams, and we just got partners today, so there's no rotation other than with your partner.)

ok, off to finish studying for stupid stats. wish me luck!

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[silvrstrfx.livejournal.com]

Heh, I get that way... angry then depressed... *hugs* Boys are... bothersome creatures ... just remember to take care of yourself, k?

Btw, I love your background :)

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[dancingyel.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

angry and depressed seems to be the natural order of things...anger due to the idiocy, and then it goes away and the depressed phase sets in. thankfully, i've gotten loads of support from all my friends, so i'm a lot calmer today. thanks for the hugs!

i enjoy my background, too...it was done by the very talented nixxie_

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[bouncyweee.livejournal.com]

In todays continuation of rampaging blind anger against males who offend my friends:

The only sympathy I feel for this guy is that he has to face my eeeeevil looks every day in practice. He should watch his dancing shoes.... heh heh heh... and his dancing groin.... and his dancing everything else. N/M, I lied. No sympathy.

-=shoots evil looks in his general direction=- Or at least, in the general direction of his house. Or where I think his house is. I may be shooting evil glares in the general direction of the fishes for all I know at this point;

I mean, why don't men communicate? Is there some physical problem?! Are they missing the "make sense, AKA DUH" gene? Well, I shouldn't say men. (I can right now since this is a nonsensical rampage against evil men who offend friends, I really mean the whole universe...)

But in any case, if there is any one of you who even considers that I may actually be planning to really make trouble during practice to this guy... I'd like to do something mildly violent to you. ;)

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[dancingyel.livejournal.com]

hehehe...oh, lily, you really crack me up.

some guys do have the communication thing working...just not the majority of them, i guess. it's stupid. one of the grad students in the lab i work in was asking me about my week, so i told him, and he said, "yeah, that makes sense. you already have a good relationship with your friends, why would you date them, too? besides, sex with a friend would be really awkward." i wanted to strangle him, but didn't since i would rather not be charged with murder. but yes, guys suck.

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[bouncyweee.livejournal.com]

I don't have time to talk about the "friends can't date friends" myth and my opinion on why it has such a taboo (and why it shouldn't), but I would appreciate if you told me who this grad student is so I can strangle him for you. You see, I don't know him, so I don't have any motivation to kill him, so the traces will never lead to meeee....

I'll go on that rant in my own journal. I promise it'll be better thought out than the last rant I posted.

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[billtsalamander.livejournal.com]

I used to make that same arguement as the lab partner did. Except I think I was more clear than just using the word "awkward." I didn't want to risk losing the friend when the relationship ended, so I didn't want to get into the relationship. The problem with that is you can piss off the friend so much by not getting into a relationship that you lose the friend anyway. Its like a mobius strip in your head. But I've gathered that this wasn't the issue with guy in question.
If he was nice enough to be worth dating, then he should be nice enough to be friends with, though. And if he's not worth being friends with, then he saved you a lot of time.

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[dancingyel.livejournal.com]

actually, this is precisely the issue with the guy in question...not the lab guy, who i couldn't care less about, he's just someone i hang out with on friday 'cause he's there...it's the issue with chris right now because i want to stay friends with him and all, but it's difficult at the moment. i'm pretty angry for the way he handled things, and the whole reasoning behind it, so by dating the person he's dating and leading me on the way he did, he's risking the friendship.