dancingyel | (no subject)

i have mostly figured out why i was so disproportionately upset over the whole chris thing...i think it's because this year has felt very happy and hopeful and full of possibilities, and it's always sad when a possibility goes away. that, combined with the fact that i was so shocked and felt led on made me more upset than i should've been.

i'm definitely feeling better today than i have this whole week. demo practice went well...it's fun to teach people, definitely good for my self esteem when i'm the best dancer there (not to be arrogant, but it's true). then found out we have nationals practice on tuesday, so called chris to tell him i couldn't practice when we said we would, and we had a really nice random conversation, a little flirty according to emily who was listening to my end, but whatever. things feel normal again...i'm calmer, which is nice. it's not like i can do a whole lot about the chris thing, and i do want to stay friends, so there it is. we'll see how everything plays itself out.

ok, off to see big fish.