stupid grad schools
Feb. 8th, 2005 06:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelwarning: rambling behind the cut
so, as says bridget jones, as soon as one part of my life is fixed, another goes spectacularly to pieces. of course, the part that wasn't so good (dance) hasn't gotten really wonderful and the part that was ok (waiting on grad schools) hasn't gotten extremely bad, since i still have 12 to hear from, but close enough. i know i shouldn't let it get me down, and i expected to be rejected from these schools, among others, but still...it's playing on my already not-so-wonderful self-esteem, which is just getting over dancing being an issue. heh. actually, i think the reason i feel better about dance is that i need something to be positive about, and now that i'm not hating the routine as much as i used to, dance is the positive thing. i can't say i like the routine more, but i dislike it less, and that's progress. maybe by the time i have to perform it, i'll get to 0 on the like-dislike scale, and then we can start going up! not counting on it, but it may happen yet. of course, when i have to dance in costume, i may hate it even more. we'll see, i guess.
i'm going home in 2 weeks, which is very nice. my mom is getting tickets for "forever tango" and i'm very excited. i'll also get to see the child! yay! well, both children, actually! yay!
ok, off to emily's place. maybe i'll cheer up.
so, as says bridget jones, as soon as one part of my life is fixed, another goes spectacularly to pieces. of course, the part that wasn't so good (dance) hasn't gotten really wonderful and the part that was ok (waiting on grad schools) hasn't gotten extremely bad, since i still have 12 to hear from, but close enough. i know i shouldn't let it get me down, and i expected to be rejected from these schools, among others, but still...it's playing on my already not-so-wonderful self-esteem, which is just getting over dancing being an issue. heh. actually, i think the reason i feel better about dance is that i need something to be positive about, and now that i'm not hating the routine as much as i used to, dance is the positive thing. i can't say i like the routine more, but i dislike it less, and that's progress. maybe by the time i have to perform it, i'll get to 0 on the like-dislike scale, and then we can start going up! not counting on it, but it may happen yet. of course, when i have to dance in costume, i may hate it even more. we'll see, i guess.
i'm going home in 2 weeks, which is very nice. my mom is getting tickets for "forever tango" and i'm very excited. i'll also get to see the child! yay! well, both children, actually! yay!
ok, off to emily's place. maybe i'll cheer up.
