maybe i'm not totally over my hang-ups yet...

i'm feeling a little anxious about massage class...we're doing abs/chest again today, and i'm just...uneasy, i guess. i was ok last time, but i freaked a bit when i got home. i'm not sure who i'll work with this time, either...i don't think jane will be there, and even if she is, i shouldn't work with her a second time on the same body part...so yes. i guess i'll see how it goes. i'm guessing i'll be fine when i'm in class...i'm just worried about how i'll feel about it later. and most of my friends aren't around for me to call at night if i need to. oh well...off to dmv to get a new license i go since my old one is dying fast.

hang ups are slowly going away

well, massage class is done and over with, and i'm actually doing ok. i didn't freak out in class, and i'm not freaking out right now, even though i haven't talked to any of my friends. cin called me, but it was like 2 minutes before i got home. she said she'd call back, but she didn't...and i haven't been able to reach her. i'll try one more time and if i can't reach her, i'll try her tommorrow or something. but yes...i'm getting over my little insecurities with the help of a very safe atmosphere. that's happy.

i'm definitely a phone person

i miss talking to my friends on the phone...cin's in taiwan, so i can't talk to her very regularly, nik's in india, and i don't even have her number there, bevan's in the phillipines, toly's in germany...let's see, who does that leave? natalie isn't really a phone person, i don't know how late i can call elli but i'll probably call her tommorrow at a more reasonable hour, and i haven't talked to sam in a while. the only person i've had a really good phone convo with this week was alex...and cindy, but it was a really short talk since she was running out of minutes on her phone card. so now i'm feeling a bit lonely, but there's no one to talk to. how sad. i think i'll try sam, and if he's not there, i'll go to sleep.