nothing's ever easy...

sometimes i wish i could just be 5 again, when life was simple...no drama, no worries, and i always found something to be excited about. but no, everything has to have complications. they're resolved for now, but for how long? lately, it seems that all solutions are only temporary.

i cry because every time we talk, i lose a little bit more. i smile because every time we talk, i gain a little more faith in us. so which one wins? must be the smiles, 'cause i keep doing it again and again.

sometimes, i think i have masochistic tendencies. today was one of those days. ah, well...like a random quote says, "A bittersweet symphony, that's life."

boredom...

had nothing to do, so i made a wishlist at amazon of random things i want at some point...it's not at all complete, but it'll be a good guide for me next time someone says, "what do you want for your birthday?" now all i need is my birthday to be soon...hehehe...no, i'll probably end up using it as a guide next time i feel like getting a new book and don't remember what it is i wanted.