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i can't think of a good way to mark shabbat other than going to hillel, but going to hillel makes me feel rather isolated. today, we didn't have very many people, so we combined the reform and conservative services and had just one conservative service. i enjoyed the singing because the people really seemed to want to sing, but i didn't know all the melodies or all the words, and the prayer book is in hebrew with english translation, but no transliteration. this is something that really bugs me...i feel that it leaves people out...i don't mind the fact that's it's all in hebrew...i can read the english to figure out what it says. i just don't like that it's not transliterated at all because i can't read hebrew well enough to follow along, so i feel left out...i can't sing the songs or chant the prayers because it moves faster than i can follow. so really, i have no choice but to go to reform services, the only ones with english transliteration. it kinda sucks...i want to try something different, see what the other services are like, but if i can't even sing with the group, it becomes rather meaningless. blah. but i had a good day other than that, so it's not so bad. ok, off to sleep now.