dancingyel | a little sadness

so i'm randomly lonely. i don't even know why. i think part of it was my sister visiting, and now i miss home a bit. i dunno. it's not like i really wanna live at home. i mean, every time i go back, i end up wanting to leave again. there's always too much fuss and problems when i come home. i don't know if my mom and i can spent a week together without fighting about something or other. it hasn't happened in recent memory. but still, i miss home. maybe it's just the feeling of home that i miss.

i wish i had someone i could cuddle up to whenever i felt lonely. that's why i like dancing so much...i can go up to a good portion of the people and just hug them...and they don't think it's weird at all. and no one questions my motives. and no one pats me condescendigly. i love the dancers. and i love my roomie, who has turned huggy recently. and i love lots of other people, but they're too many to list. i just wish some of them were here.

oh, this is funny. i'm listening to my mp3s, and it's on shuffle, so i get random songs. the last song was "the time of your life" by randy newman...from bug's life. the song that just came on is "time of your life" by green day...weird, huh? two in a row. hmmm...maybe it's trying to tell me something while i'm in this funk. synchronicity...gotta love those moments.

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