i thought it was a good day

[dancingyel]

...but now i'm not sure. i had an interview that went fairly well, but all my interviews have gone well, and do i have a job yet? clearly not. and then i went folk dancing this evening, and somehow that didn't go very well. it wasn't that it went badly or anything, because i was really glad to see tali and kevin and emily and ella and just hang out with them, but i was having a low self-esteem sort of evening, and that's not good for dancing. in fact, when i don't know most of the dances, and there were couples dances more than half the time, self-esteem tends to take a nosedive regardless of where it started. and this evening it was already low, so maybe going folk dancing was not the best plan. but i wanted to see people! and i did, so at least that was good.

so san diego folk, i'm gonna be there from sunday night to wednesday night! we should all hang out! i'll call people individually, i'm sure, but if you're reading this and you're in san diego, keep some time open so i can see you! i'm gonna be busy monday afternoon, but the rest of the time, i'm open for whatever.

i'm feeling super whiny, so i'm gonna post this and stop writing before it all comes out in the journal. sorry, guys. random bad mood. but i love all my friends, and that makes me happier. off to bed, i guess.

Comments

big sigh

[musiclsole.livejournal.com]

I got a similar feel for my night at Israeli dancing. It was fun at times, but I somehow felt out of place. I know you're in SD right now, so I hope you're in a better place than you were when you wrote this entry, but I just wanted to remind you that I think you're beautiful, inside and out. Keep your head up!

Re: big sigh

[dancingyel.livejournal.com]

*hugs* i'm definitely in a better place now...san diego and the company of dancer boys will do that, won't it? heh. i got so happy when i got here yesterday...it makes me a little sad, knowing that wherever i end up, i will be missing so many people! on the other hand, i know that wherever i end up, i'll have lots of people to be happy with, so that's a comforting thought.

thank you for the encouragement...i don't usually need it, but it's so good to have it when i do!

see you in a couple of days, probably!