![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelwow...haven't posted this late in a while, but this is definitely what happens when i have a computer with internet access available.
so i'm gonna make this a quick sort of post, but what i really want to do is put several general apologies out here, since it's yom kippur soon, and that's a time to find ways to change.
i'm sorry for a lot of things this year, like every year, but i think the biggest things i need to apologize for are being judgemental and holding on to bad feelings. so the judgemental bit is pretty obvious. i tend to form opinions about people way too quickly and then later, i realize that if i just back away from my first impressions a little, i end up being much nicer and liking people much more. i also judge way too quickly when people do things that i wouldn't do. i try hard not to impose my values on people, and i do an ok job of not telling people what they should or shouldn't do, but in my head, i often judge negatively when others do things i disagree with. i'm sorry for that and i will do my best to refrain from making these judgements.
the other big thing i feel bad about is holding on to negativity. this is really true in my realtionship with my mom, but it happens with other people, as well. it's really hard for me to forget past hurts...they keep coming up in my mind, and while that's partly out of my control, i don't do nearly enough to push away these thoughts and focus on positives, or just on other thigns in general. there's so much room for improvement here, and i just need to remember through the next year that when i think negatively about others, it hurts everyone...it changes the way i act towards them, it changes my mood, it's just not such a good thing. so yeah, something to think about.
there are lots of other things i wish i could do differently, but these are the big ones. really, if there's something you wish i would've apologized for and i haven't, leave me a comment. i'll screen them for privacy and i may not get back to you until after yom kippur, but i will answer as soon as possible.
i will, in all probability, post once more before the start of yom kippur. good night for now!
so i'm gonna make this a quick sort of post, but what i really want to do is put several general apologies out here, since it's yom kippur soon, and that's a time to find ways to change.
i'm sorry for a lot of things this year, like every year, but i think the biggest things i need to apologize for are being judgemental and holding on to bad feelings. so the judgemental bit is pretty obvious. i tend to form opinions about people way too quickly and then later, i realize that if i just back away from my first impressions a little, i end up being much nicer and liking people much more. i also judge way too quickly when people do things that i wouldn't do. i try hard not to impose my values on people, and i do an ok job of not telling people what they should or shouldn't do, but in my head, i often judge negatively when others do things i disagree with. i'm sorry for that and i will do my best to refrain from making these judgements.
the other big thing i feel bad about is holding on to negativity. this is really true in my realtionship with my mom, but it happens with other people, as well. it's really hard for me to forget past hurts...they keep coming up in my mind, and while that's partly out of my control, i don't do nearly enough to push away these thoughts and focus on positives, or just on other thigns in general. there's so much room for improvement here, and i just need to remember through the next year that when i think negatively about others, it hurts everyone...it changes the way i act towards them, it changes my mood, it's just not such a good thing. so yeah, something to think about.
there are lots of other things i wish i could do differently, but these are the big ones. really, if there's something you wish i would've apologized for and i haven't, leave me a comment. i'll screen them for privacy and i may not get back to you until after yom kippur, but i will answer as soon as possible.
i will, in all probability, post once more before the start of yom kippur. good night for now!
