some random contemplations
Jul. 20th, 2002 10:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyeli wanna write about the avon breast cancer walk from last weekend, but when i start thinking about it, i get tired...so i'll probably write about it during the weekend or something...yeah. just wanted to mention it since it was all i did last weekend.
so massage class is great. i think i'm starting to absorb things, which is good...and i'm getting over my little hang-ups...like not liking having my legs massaged. it's a really nice, safe place...it makes it hard to be uncomfortable about anything. and i really like the people. i'm mostly hanging out with people from the same orientation group as me...tommi (it's a woman) and bart and jane when she's there and alex who i drive home after class. they're nice people...they're all older than me, so they feel like they have to protect me sometimes. it's funny...i was working with alex when we were doing front of legs and feet, and he must've asked me if i was ok like 5 times in the span of 10 minutes. i found that very amusing...but it's nice, too. everyone there really looks out for each other.
the other reason massage is really cool is that a lot of its principles really fit in with what i think...like communicating with someone through touch. that's a big deal for me...and that's what massage is all about. when done properly, it looks almost like a dance...there's a certain rhythm to the motion, something very graceful and fluid. there's definitely an interaction there...the therapist moves with the person on the table. yeah...i could go on for hours, but i won't.
there's this quote i saw the other day that i think i've seen before, and it's amusing so i thought i'd share it. it goes,
"when your heart is broken, remember that it will heal and you will love like this again, except when you do, you'll insist that you've never loved like this before."
i don't know who it's by...but yeah...isn't that great? but it's true, too. if you're in love and it doesn't work out, it's hard to imagine having feelings that intense for anyone else...but then, someone comes around, and all of a sudden, you can't imagine that you ever felt that intensely for anyone else. the heart is a funny thing. but yes...i think that quote is a good reminder for me to stay optimistic. even when i think, "when am i ever gonna feel that way again," i know myself, and i know that at some point i will, hard as that is to believe.
when i take the time to think about it, despite all that we can't have or can't be, what we are is pretty special.
last friday, a week ago, it was exactly a year after that thursday ice skating trip. and saturday the 13th was exactly 1 year after my car got totalled...but more importantly, it was exactly a year after a lovely letter was placed in my mailbox. i knew all this, but i was walking, and my emotions were running high already, so i didn't wanna think about it then. now that i'm calm, i can contemplate and cherish it all. "for what it's worth, it was worth all the while. it's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. i hope you had the time of your life." (green day, time of your life
i know...i'm just a silly girl who remembers the silly little details about all her encounters with everyone. but the details make each moment special...the big things are great, but the details add that something extra. yeah...i'll stop rambling now.
so massage class is great. i think i'm starting to absorb things, which is good...and i'm getting over my little hang-ups...like not liking having my legs massaged. it's a really nice, safe place...it makes it hard to be uncomfortable about anything. and i really like the people. i'm mostly hanging out with people from the same orientation group as me...tommi (it's a woman) and bart and jane when she's there and alex who i drive home after class. they're nice people...they're all older than me, so they feel like they have to protect me sometimes. it's funny...i was working with alex when we were doing front of legs and feet, and he must've asked me if i was ok like 5 times in the span of 10 minutes. i found that very amusing...but it's nice, too. everyone there really looks out for each other.
the other reason massage is really cool is that a lot of its principles really fit in with what i think...like communicating with someone through touch. that's a big deal for me...and that's what massage is all about. when done properly, it looks almost like a dance...there's a certain rhythm to the motion, something very graceful and fluid. there's definitely an interaction there...the therapist moves with the person on the table. yeah...i could go on for hours, but i won't.
there's this quote i saw the other day that i think i've seen before, and it's amusing so i thought i'd share it. it goes,
"when your heart is broken, remember that it will heal and you will love like this again, except when you do, you'll insist that you've never loved like this before."
i don't know who it's by...but yeah...isn't that great? but it's true, too. if you're in love and it doesn't work out, it's hard to imagine having feelings that intense for anyone else...but then, someone comes around, and all of a sudden, you can't imagine that you ever felt that intensely for anyone else. the heart is a funny thing. but yes...i think that quote is a good reminder for me to stay optimistic. even when i think, "when am i ever gonna feel that way again," i know myself, and i know that at some point i will, hard as that is to believe.
when i take the time to think about it, despite all that we can't have or can't be, what we are is pretty special.
last friday, a week ago, it was exactly a year after that thursday ice skating trip. and saturday the 13th was exactly 1 year after my car got totalled...but more importantly, it was exactly a year after a lovely letter was placed in my mailbox. i knew all this, but i was walking, and my emotions were running high already, so i didn't wanna think about it then. now that i'm calm, i can contemplate and cherish it all. "for what it's worth, it was worth all the while. it's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. i hope you had the time of your life." (green day, time of your life
i know...i'm just a silly girl who remembers the silly little details about all her encounters with everyone. but the details make each moment special...the big things are great, but the details add that something extra. yeah...i'll stop rambling now.
