deja vu

[dancingyel]

had a crummy day, as evidenced by journal entries. was happy when friend called. told him my issues re: needing people too much and feeling like only my family would be affected greatly if i went to live in antarctica or something. ammended that to my family and my roomie. he said something to the effect of, "well, who would be affected if i went to antarctica?" i said that i would and he replied, "well, only you and my family then" and proceeded to try and convince me that God can replace people. and all i could think of was, "oh, i guess you wouldn't care if i went to antarctica, then...no, that's right, you have God...people must not matter." i know that's probably unfair...wait, no, i know it's unfair, but at this point, i don't really care. i mean, seriously, shouldn't one be at least a little sensitive? or is that too much to ask?

as for God, it is my firm belief that He put people here to do things He's choosing not to do...such as hug their friends and such...and that He can't really replace people in the sense that He chooses not to take on human form and go to each sad person and hug him or her. i mean, He sends His love through people, so when someone hugs you it's like God hugging you...but yes. i don't know if that all makes sense written down, but it makes sense in my head.

off to bed i go...i hope tomorrow is a better day.