procrastination is bad, but i do it anyways

[dancingyel]

so i have a lab and an essay due tomorrow, and i've hardly done the lab and i haven't even started the essay, but i don't think i can deal with sitting down and doing it just now. thankfully, tomorrow's friday, so i'll be able to rest and such. and dance. i hope blain goes to dancing today...that would be super cool, as nik would say. except i can't wear my dance shoes 'cause they're hurting my big toe, even with a band-aid. oh, well, i suppose i'll give my poor feet a rest and wear lower shoes for a change. i also need to pay dues for the team...i was thinking of quiting, but i decided that it'll be easier to get on a better team if i stay...and also, if peter pairs us up with people for day by the shores, it'll be ok. oh, no! i just found out that day by the shores is the same weekend as the hillel conference! no!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, i'll wait and see if i'm one of the people chosen, and if i am, i'll have to think about what to do. i really wanna compete...but i wanna go to the conference and learn more about judaism...bother...i guess i'll just wait to make a decision.
so i found out the other day that krishna asked cameron out, and then after she said no, he asked me. humph. i realize she's very pretty and cool, and it's not like i like krishna, but it's just frustrating. being the back-up is yucky...it's the whole desperation thing. bother. and no, it doesn't really matter what this specific guy thinks, but it's the general idiocy of it all. and yes, i realize i'm loved by my friends and all, and society shouldn't matter and i'll find someone who appreciates me for me and all that good stuff...but still, it's annoying. yes. why do guys have to be dumb like that? the ones that aren't stupid are either taken or not interested or otherwise not available for some reason or other.
on a happier note, i'm going home in two weeks. it'll be very nice to see everyone again. i miss my family...rachel especially, since i can't talk to her or anything. and i miss sam...it'll be good to see him. it'll be the week before his birthday, so we'll have to do something cool. i'm going to kidnap him, which he already knows...but i can't say any more since it has to be a surprise. but it'll be fun! i wish i could fly home instead of taking the bus...but oh, well. too expensive and a bit scary. i should go buy greyhound tickets now.

Comments

[waccoonie71.livejournal.com]

just curious... would you rather be the back-up, or not get asked at all? and yes, i heartily agree guys are dumb. as a species in general. certain individuals aren't quite so dumb. perhaps we should communicate more nonviolently with them. or something.

[thinknikki.livejournal.com]

that's a really good question!! it depends who the person is.and whether they were just asking me out because they were desperate, or if they thought about it, and realized that i was the perfecct person for them. hahaha