oh, my

[dancingyel]

i did it. i sent jessica an e-mail saying i want to de-activate from tga. i just sent it 5 minutes ago, so i'm not sure when she'll reply, but the act is done, which is a relief. i've been dreading it, and i'm glad to get it over with. we'll see what the process and such is.

why did i do it? well, the reasons are numerous. a big one is that i just don't have the time to put into it. there are so many rules and requirements about attending events, and i just have too many other things going on in my life. another reason is that, while i liked the girls, i never really fit in with the group that well. i was just too different from most of them to be really close. i didn't think i'd ever find a jewish group that worked any better, so i just stayed. but after bci, where i realized that i could be comfortable in a jewish group, where i didn't have to sit and stay quiet because i didn't feel like anyone would listen if i spoke my mind, i saw that a comfortable jewish group is possible and i shouldn't settle for less just because i can't find anything else. jews like me are out there, and while they may not be at ucsd, they're around and i will eventually find them. yes. and the straw that pushed me to really decide to quit was the treasurer's rude e-mail to cindy, who was trying to help me out with my e-mails while i was a bci. i don't need to be around people who are that rude to my friends. yes. that is all.

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[sknowite.livejournal.com]

I deactivated from my sorority, and look, I'm still alive! Don't worry. The ones who are really your peeps won't mind that you aren't paying to hang around with them forcably anymore. It'll all be good. Write (or call) if you wanna vent about it.