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dancingyel) wrote2003-09-05 02:37 pm
dancingyel) wrote2003-09-05 02:37 pm
oh, my
i did it. i sent jessica an e-mail saying i want to de-activate from tga. i just sent it 5 minutes ago, so i'm not sure when she'll reply, but the act is done, which is a relief. i've been dreading it, and i'm glad to get it over with. we'll see what the process and such is.
why did i do it? well, the reasons are numerous. a big one is that i just don't have the time to put into it. there are so many rules and requirements about attending events, and i just have too many other things going on in my life. another reason is that, while i liked the girls, i never really fit in with the group that well. i was just too different from most of them to be really close. i didn't think i'd ever find a jewish group that worked any better, so i just stayed. but after bci, where i realized that i could be comfortable in a jewish group, where i didn't have to sit and stay quiet because i didn't feel like anyone would listen if i spoke my mind, i saw that a comfortable jewish group is possible and i shouldn't settle for less just because i can't find anything else. jews like me are out there, and while they may not be at ucsd, they're around and i will eventually find them. yes. and the straw that pushed me to really decide to quit was the treasurer's rude e-mail to cindy, who was trying to help me out with my e-mails while i was a bci. i don't need to be around people who are that rude to my friends. yes. that is all.
why did i do it? well, the reasons are numerous. a big one is that i just don't have the time to put into it. there are so many rules and requirements about attending events, and i just have too many other things going on in my life. another reason is that, while i liked the girls, i never really fit in with the group that well. i was just too different from most of them to be really close. i didn't think i'd ever find a jewish group that worked any better, so i just stayed. but after bci, where i realized that i could be comfortable in a jewish group, where i didn't have to sit and stay quiet because i didn't feel like anyone would listen if i spoke my mind, i saw that a comfortable jewish group is possible and i shouldn't settle for less just because i can't find anything else. jews like me are out there, and while they may not be at ucsd, they're around and i will eventually find them. yes. and the straw that pushed me to really decide to quit was the treasurer's rude e-mail to cindy, who was trying to help me out with my e-mails while i was a bci. i don't need to be around people who are that rude to my friends. yes. that is all.
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