it's the first weekend of the school year!

and yesterday was the first friday night, thus hillel services. cin came with me since nav nights are only starting next week, whicih is rather nice 'cause she's been wanting to see what services are like for a while now. yesterday was...overwhelming fits it best. loads of people since it was the first shabbat of the school year. i don't think half the people that were there will actually come back, but we'll see. it was hard to really talk to people because it was loud and very crowded...but i did get to see several people i wanted to see, and i also made a new friend, which was cool.

interesting things that happened last night: finally talked to ari after a summer of wondering about it all...am now convinced that my mind was just messing with me and there's absolutely nothing to anything he said. talked to rabbi lisa, which was nice. i think i should talk to her more this year...she's helpful and insightful. saw josh wortman...got a super nice hug from him...had a very good convo, until he started telling me about how much he loves his girlfriend who's in brazil and how hard it is to stay in a committed relationship with someone who's in another country. i wanted to be sympathetic, really i did...but all i could think was, "i like you! stop telling me about your girl already! i don't wanna know!" but of course, i didn't say that...i just listened and made appropriate comments, as usual. then, risa and her brother who i think is named hedron and joey convinced me to go the aepi party after services...and david, this guy who's a transfer from claremont mesa, said he'd give me a ride and everything. so, i decided i'd go and see what it was like. frankly, it sucked. music in one room with no one dancing, and the other rooms and the backyard filled with a bunch of people drinking and trying to talk to each other, mostly unsuccessfully since it was tres loud and a good portion of them were a bit drunk. i think i would've enjoyed it more if there were people dancing and i could dance, but the way it was, i just hung out with risa and hedron and talked to random people i saw, like leo...who's still as hot as ever, and as stupid as ever. i was really glad that david a)doesn't drink or else i would've had to drive his car back and b)wanted to leave at like 11:30 'cause he didn't think the party was all that great, either. so he drove me back home and made me call him when i got upstairs to my place so he'd know i got in safely and all. that was sweet...and now i have his number...which of course doesn't really help since he has a girlfriend in santa barbara and was telling me all about her and the issues they have with one another. i was thinking, "what, is this my day to play psychiatrist to guys with girl problems?" but, once again, i didn't say anything to that effect and just tried to be sympathetic...it was easier with him since i just met him and never had a crush on him like i did on josh. but yeah.

oh, i realized that i haven't mentioned any of my classes yet. of course, they weren't nearly as exciting as all the social stuff...but still, i feel i should say something about them. so i don't know what modern dance is like yet since we haven't started dancing, but i'll know on tuesday. o-chem is a little scary, but i think if i keep up with all the stuff, it's doable. physics doesn't seem so bad...the prof is nice, but i haven't looked at the book yet. math is tres scary...not the problems yet, but the prof is a mean and unaccomodating idiot. don't get me started on him. hum seems like it'll be interesting, with lots of reading. i'll be ok if i don't fall behind. ok, that's all for classes then.

how exciting...my year is off and running!

first weekend of the school year also means first homework

i have lots of boring stuff to do this weekend...hum reading, which i've done so that's out of the way, math, and lots of o-chem reading. math isn't too hard so far...simple matrices and solving systems of equations...stuff that's pretty elementary, but rather time consuming. o-chem is...scary and sleep inducing describe it best. i can't seem to read that book for longer than a page or two at a time. i think it'll have to wait 'till tomorrow, since i'm not at all up to doing any more reading today.

so i finally got a color printer cartridge, new headphones since mine were crummy, and a book called Christinaity in Jewish Terms which i'm going to return since i found it on amazon for significantly cheaper, with free shipping since i wanted to get another book there, too. it looks really interesting, but i'm gonna hold off on reading it until i get a little more of my math hw done.

i'm feeling weird right now...isolated, for some reason. yesterday's party made me wonder if i'll ever fit in with hillel people. all the tga girls know each other, and while everyone was super sweet and huggy, they all have their other friends. i'm hoping that as the year goes on, we'll become closer as a group, but right now, i'm a little of an outsider still. and it's not just hillel. i'm not all that close to very many people here in general. i wonder if i'll ever meet people i can be close to here in college. if it weren't for the fact that i made lots of friends at massage this summer, i'd doubt my ability to meet new people successfully. as it is, i think that i'm just not that great at finding people to be friends with...massage was unique in that it gave me a chance to be around a whole bunch of people who were a lot like me. here, i have trouble finding people like that. i'm a little like the dancers, a little like hillel people, a little like the navs people i know, but not a lot like any of those. i wish i knew who i am. i miss feeling that i belong to a group.

p.s. i also feel like i don't know what's going on in anyone's lives, except for cindy. none of you people with lj's are keeping them very updated! talk to me! tell me what's up!

giants rule, dodgers drool!

hahahahahaha to all you dodgers fans out there...cough*sam joe*cough. giants are now in the playoffs and dodgers aren't...so there. hooray!