more team stuff rambling...sorry

by the end of the night last night, i had pretty much decided that i'd stay on the team...i had talked to my mom and various friends, and figured that i'd regret it more if i quit than if i stayed. but this morning, i got a response from peter and he was just rude and abrupt and i got the distinct impression that it's fairly irrelevant to him what i do, and now i'm not sure again. yes, i know, we have way more women on the team than we need, and really, all of us are fairly dispensible. but i thought, at least as command staff and someone who's been on the team for 3 years and does random stuff like help him out with demo, he'd at least be nice to me about my concerns. i wasn't expecting anything to change...i placed where i placed, it's the dancing, and that's all there is to it. what i was hoping for was some reassurance that he'd make an effort to have the alternates dance more and such, and i didn't get any of that. blah. as my mom said, i'm on the team because of the other dancers, not because of him, but still. now what? i gotta decide very soon what i want to do. like by tonight. and i don't want to quit, really i don't, but this just sucks.