yucky yucky times

[dancingyel]

ok, i've decided that i hate the middle of the quarter, especially since it's spring quarter. there's so much stuff going on right now, and all i can think about is getting out of here and going home for the summer. next week is gonna be hell. i have a hum paper due and a math midterm on wednesday, a lab due thursday, and a chem midterm friday. but that's just next week. for tomorrow, i have to finish a chem lab that's already late, write the lady in san francisco to get details about my internship, fill out and turn in applications for storage space for the ballroom dance club, get ready to talk to navs people about fundraising, figure out how to get to LAX on sunday, and prepare for the marshall semiformal which i am randomly going to with a friend of a friend. bother. between all this, i must somehow manage to get some sleep. i think i'll go sleep after i finish this entry, then tomorrow not go to chem and work on my lab, then not go to dancing until i'm done with my lab and it's turned in.

i now know what ceci meant by dance politics. everyone is stressed out and one of our officers is being rather rude to me. i will refrain from naming her, since i'm trying my best not to be rude. however, if she writes me another nasty e-mail, i'm afraid i will not be very pleasant in return. i've been good so far, but i'm not a very patient person, and there's only so much i can do to keep myself from snapping back. hopefully everything will calm down soon.

i realized that i didn't put the context for the quote i had in my last entry. it's talking about the power of silence, and how that was the way rabbis of the talmud felt about God, with that awe and deep love. i just really liked the way it was written, especially since i can relate to it. i think that's why i love hugs so much. they take the place of words...i don't have to say anything, but i can still show love. yeah.

so here's another quote from the same book. this time, the context is that while it is an important thing that God loves humans, it is more important that we are aware of this love.

"To love alone, in secret, is not enough. The benefit of the beloved comes equally from the recognition of love, the feeling of warmth and uniquness that it bestows. That is a great tragedy of some love, that it exists but is not communicated to the beloved, to the child, to the parent, the husband or wife. Even though love abounds, the psychological supposrt is lost...To be loved is insufficient. The wall of restraint must crumble. Love must be expressed, felt, shared"
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts

so yes...what's the point of this, you ask? it's quite clear. if you love someone, tell them. or at least show them...but let them know in some way or another. yes.

Comments

[trinary.livejournal.com]

that last part is something on my mind a lot these days...
That in conjunction with -- to what degree is your love for another correlated with their love for you, and is it possible to truly love someone who doesn't love you? Because isn't true love by definition mutual? Maybe not.
And when it comes to expressing love which is unverifiable even to yourself, what do you do? Do you not express it on the notion that if you're unsure, then it's probably not really love, or do you express the uncertainty itself, on the assumption that an expression of uncertainty may resolve it? or nothing at all, on the assumption that things are likely to change, and you'll know in time whether it ought to be expressed, and when to do it?

dance politics

[maddancingfool.livejournal.com]

If the politics of the club are anything like those of the team, I wouldn't wish them on anyone. Thank goodness I'm almost done with this responsibility position! Yay! Just a few more weeks...

procrastination dedication

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Laini, You always seem to write of some interesting topic and get interesting responses. whoo haa.. Well, I miss you very much (having not seen you for, well, 4 months now) and your entry on 4/29 just happened to hit the homesick bout that I had while I was at the OR coast. Quite a coincidence..indeed. I don't currently share your sentiments for the midsemester lull.. since I'm outta here next week after finals and packing (and I'll see ya with Eli soon enough!) and things have gotten slightly more interesting with Zak since I last spoke to you.
(and this is how I connect to the comments about love) the pragmatics: stating your interest feels a lot tougher when you're faced with it.. does it make friendship more awkward? will it start something that you don't really want? is there a disadvantage to waiting and letting plans (ie. summer) take you away for a while.. (will clarify later if needed)
as for the quote, thanks to the Reed Humanities 'programme' the topic is somewhat familiar (Final on monday!) there were a lot of politics to the power of silence too. many religions deal with the concept of a formless god, or at least one that shouldn't be depicted lest it can be corrupted and at one point or another in some parts of the world, believers were considered atheistic rebells, go figure.. (sorry for the vagueness and lack of specifics...trying to be pc)
aite, enough of my rabblings..must read and study and understand the world.

peace out, cya soon dears!
On Lee

oh elaine, i'm sorry things are yucky...but it's okay, because...

[waccoonie71.livejournal.com]

...my love for you is yellow,
like chicken noodle soup!
it is not constant,
but increases with each day.
until it finally boils over,
overflowing out of the pot,
all over the place,
so that the whole world can taste
and see that i love you!

MUAH! hehehehehe hope things get better!