yucky yucky times
May. 3rd, 2002 12:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dancingyelok, i've decided that i hate the middle of the quarter, especially since it's spring quarter. there's so much stuff going on right now, and all i can think about is getting out of here and going home for the summer. next week is gonna be hell. i have a hum paper due and a math midterm on wednesday, a lab due thursday, and a chem midterm friday. but that's just next week. for tomorrow, i have to finish a chem lab that's already late, write the lady in san francisco to get details about my internship, fill out and turn in applications for storage space for the ballroom dance club, get ready to talk to navs people about fundraising, figure out how to get to LAX on sunday, and prepare for the marshall semiformal which i am randomly going to with a friend of a friend. bother. between all this, i must somehow manage to get some sleep. i think i'll go sleep after i finish this entry, then tomorrow not go to chem and work on my lab, then not go to dancing until i'm done with my lab and it's turned in.
i now know what ceci meant by dance politics. everyone is stressed out and one of our officers is being rather rude to me. i will refrain from naming her, since i'm trying my best not to be rude. however, if she writes me another nasty e-mail, i'm afraid i will not be very pleasant in return. i've been good so far, but i'm not a very patient person, and there's only so much i can do to keep myself from snapping back. hopefully everything will calm down soon.
i realized that i didn't put the context for the quote i had in my last entry. it's talking about the power of silence, and how that was the way rabbis of the talmud felt about God, with that awe and deep love. i just really liked the way it was written, especially since i can relate to it. i think that's why i love hugs so much. they take the place of words...i don't have to say anything, but i can still show love. yeah.
so here's another quote from the same book. this time, the context is that while it is an important thing that God loves humans, it is more important that we are aware of this love.
"To love alone, in secret, is not enough. The benefit of the beloved comes equally from the recognition of love, the feeling of warmth and uniquness that it bestows. That is a great tragedy of some love, that it exists but is not communicated to the beloved, to the child, to the parent, the husband or wife. Even though love abounds, the psychological supposrt is lost...To be loved is insufficient. The wall of restraint must crumble. Love must be expressed, felt, shared"
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts
so yes...what's the point of this, you ask? it's quite clear. if you love someone, tell them. or at least show them...but let them know in some way or another. yes.
i now know what ceci meant by dance politics. everyone is stressed out and one of our officers is being rather rude to me. i will refrain from naming her, since i'm trying my best not to be rude. however, if she writes me another nasty e-mail, i'm afraid i will not be very pleasant in return. i've been good so far, but i'm not a very patient person, and there's only so much i can do to keep myself from snapping back. hopefully everything will calm down soon.
i realized that i didn't put the context for the quote i had in my last entry. it's talking about the power of silence, and how that was the way rabbis of the talmud felt about God, with that awe and deep love. i just really liked the way it was written, especially since i can relate to it. i think that's why i love hugs so much. they take the place of words...i don't have to say anything, but i can still show love. yeah.
so here's another quote from the same book. this time, the context is that while it is an important thing that God loves humans, it is more important that we are aware of this love.
"To love alone, in secret, is not enough. The benefit of the beloved comes equally from the recognition of love, the feeling of warmth and uniquness that it bestows. That is a great tragedy of some love, that it exists but is not communicated to the beloved, to the child, to the parent, the husband or wife. Even though love abounds, the psychological supposrt is lost...To be loved is insufficient. The wall of restraint must crumble. Love must be expressed, felt, shared"
David J. Wolpe, The Healer of Shattered Hearts
so yes...what's the point of this, you ask? it's quite clear. if you love someone, tell them. or at least show them...but let them know in some way or another. yes.
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Date: 2002-05-04 01:26 am (UTC)It just brings these questions to mind.
It's a good point about love. unconditionality is a must for true love. I've thought that before but it slipped my mind; thanks for reminding me.
On the other hand, I think that true love is ultimately mutual. It might not be mutual right away, but I think given enough time, anyone who knew they were truly loved, lets say loved unconditionally, by another, would eventually come to love them back.
It's like heat -- if you're in the proximity of a hot object for long enough, it will eventually start to warm you up, even if it's undetectable at first. --Only that's a bad analogy because in that situation, you wouldn't start heating up the hot object after a long time. anyway.
Telling. Yeah. It's a good thing, and I've always been a strong proponent of communication. It just makes it hard, since I'm not sure exactly what my feelings are, and I've been feeling them on and off for so long, and she's a good friend of mine, probably one of my closest friends, to begin with. What is there to say? "By the way, I really like you a lot." "no kidding, so do I" "no I mean..." "hey wanna watch a movie?" "ok"